A Lifetime Is A Long Time To Grieve

My therapist asked me why I hold onto the past. I couldn’t give her an answer.

Now I can…

I was asked why I hold onto the past

No, it is not fear that makes me cling

It is pain. It is sadness. It is grief and a deep

Desire to always hold onto you, your memory

I fear to let go of the past is to let go of you

And I never want to let go of you.

I still miss you, every day, I miss your gentle, loving

Ways, I miss your kindness and security, I miss the way

I always knew I was loved when I was with you,

I miss you! And I never want to lose you, your voice,

Your memory. I have been sad since the day you left me…

Some grief is so deep, so real, can one ever let go?

Oh, I wish you were here, and I wish you hadn’t gone

So soon, too soon!

I know you never wanted this for me and if you were here

Now, you’d say, “Ingrid, I know you miss me, but I want you

To be happy. I want you to live. You have a good life and I am

Proud of the woman you’ve become. Let go of the past, heal,

And move on. I am still with you. I have never left you, but you

Need to let go of what was and embrace what is.

You will never forget me, Child, and I will always be here in your heart,

Loving you, caring for you, waiting for you, but not before you live

The life you were intended to live.

Be whole, Child, be true to yourself. I have no greater joy than

For you to be who you truly are.”

Let go of the past and live.