I am lost in the daze of an unfamiliar fog
Mentally drained, emotionally depleted and
Physically? Restless, yes, I yearn to walk
Among the colorful landscapes of my youth,
Where reds and golds and browns layered
The ground while filling the sky above my head,
I long for chilly temperatures and the light of
Jack-a-lanterns …and the dresses and long capes
We wore back then, I long for the fellowship of
Family, the songs, the dancing, the merriment as
We embraced the natural world long gone…
I was different then, I was wild and free, and we
Were…hunted, we did not fit their ideal,
We were strange and our naturalness was
Unnatural in their eyes, we were a threat, and so
They chased us and imprisoned us, and ultimately,
Burned us, but not to rid the earth of us, but rather
To purge their own damaged souls…, Is this why
I feel so restless? Are the memories of who and what
I was returning? Am I denying my true self?
Perhaps that is why I yearn for the simple ‘ness
Of yesterday and the love of the family and friends
Long gone…but I wonder, are the lives we live today real?
Or a lie, a search for fulfillment as we strived to hide
The truth of who we are inside, Or maybe, that’s just me.
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